So I'm crying a lot right now.

Over dinner tonight, I went to dads. And we were talking about car crashes and stuff. And Whendi brought up a story about a girl dying on her way to school. She said the name was Amanda Reyes or something and it founded familiar.

She went and grabbed the paper and it turned out it was Cheerleader. This girl I met a few years back at this cheap-o anime-con. We went to school together and I would talk to her and draw for her and just hang out with her a lot. Especially last year after work. I'd hang out with Nick and her.

At first I told myself 'no it can't be her.' But after so long I realized it was. She was dead. She wasn't coming back.

She got a transfer to a country school half way through the year so I hardly saw her anymore. Last time I did see her was at work. She came in saying we should hang out sometime. I told her about New Zealand and the Leek N00bs and she said she wanted to be part of it and I said she could but she'd have to come hang with us sometime.

I don't even have a picture of her... I had a few on my camera but deleted them a long time ago to save memory.

The only thing I have left of her, besides memories, is a little glitter golden Hello Kitty eraser she gave me so I could draw her stuff.

I'm looking at it now and I can't stop crying.

Death has never scared me before, and even now I'm not afraid. I just wish I'd gotten to say goodbye. Say hello. Say anything to let her now how much I cared.

I mean, yeah, we weren't that great of friends but still..

I just hurt all over.

With the whole driving to Portland thing this weekend I'm a little shaken up but I know Cheerleader would have wanted us to go and have fun. She was suppose to go and hang with us...

I'll miss you Cheerleader.

A lot.

I know you're smiling down on me now telling me it'll be okay. I can hear you laughing at me and trying to comfort me. I know you weren't in any pain. I'm glad it's over now. It was just your time. But I'll miss you a lot.

Love you.

Kori.

So things are starting to look up for me.

Work is work but going better ish. We lost Tyler and Fifi is quitting like...tomorrow. Or she said she's going to call in 'sick' the two days she works this week. She's asking for it that's for sure... It'll be nice but also annoying because I'm sure Carole will cling to me about it all.

Getting new people either tomorrow, Wednesday or next week. I guess we're getting a total of nine new people. We got three and now we're getting them more and more each week. Good news for Carlina hopefully!

I'm working on an animation right now. Nothing fancy, I was just bored and have had the idea for a while now so yeah...

Oh!

Everyone know my neighbors? Who doesn't right? Well, when Kori gets pissed and snaps, she does it in style. People push me around too much but they don't realize how much power I have and when I get mad, I do indeed get mad.

I call my step-dad first. They were INSANE last night. Besides the constant on going thing. Last night around 5:30, I got home (after getting Toya fixed!!!) and they were there. I ignored their loud music and horrible singing, grabbing Slink and we headed to Fifi's for her b-day party.

Well those idiots like...ran at my car as I"m leaving, screaming and laughing and whatever the hell else. I just glare at them (not actually looking AT them) and leave thinking 'yeah, get in front of my car, I WILL hit you assholes'.

I get home around 9:30ish (because I have a new light!) and they're still in the parking lot. Screaming and standing right in my way. I have to dodge and everything.

Go inside and their music is SO loud I thought they were partying in my place. Whistles going off, bad singing, same F'ing song FIVE TIMES IN A ROW! And I snap. I'm shaking and feel like crying every time they're near so I call Jim.

He tells me a number to call, so I do.

The cops come but go to the wrong house (my bad mostly) then leave. I text Jim back (while trying to sleep at 10:10pm) saying they just moved the main party inside instead of the parking lot.

I recorded some of it in case you want to see it later.

So he comes over and says he can hear them all the way out in his car. He comes up and says 'um, yeah, that is WAY too loud.' So he calls his buddies in the station.

They get here and it goes deathly silent. They claim they weren't drinking but Jim says they had to have been to be THAT loud. I guess the apartment is issued to Ashley Hurst? The name sounds familiar. She's 21 but her sister that's always over is only 20.

Anyway, the cops leave and Jim stays around a while to make sure they don't come up and do anything to me.

They don't. It gets so quiet, I thought they all died. They didn't talk, didn't move, didn't take their millions of showers. They just stopped.

So with tears in my eyes I fell asleep for the first time in a long time.

We'll see if it keeps up. I'm still telling the land lord on Tuesday. Jim says he'll be tracking them now though. I guess the nice black car I thought was the BFs is really Ashley's and the shitty red car I thought was hers belongs to someone in the G building? I dunno why it's here then.

But he says he's going to do background checks and all this fun stuff on them. I guess he's been doing some but didn't know everything and now he does. Yay!

So I'm EXTREMELY happy over that.

Toya got fixed though too. Jim did that as well (yay!). Toya has a new light though not a new cover so it'll have to be replaced a lot until I fi that. The battery was so bad before, Jim says, that it was a wonder it ran at all. So he cleaned everything up and now Toya purrs in a 4-runner sort of way XD

Kcon is in five more days! Of course Cisne was all 'it's three days'. And i"m all 'how the hell you get that?' And he's all 'you can't count today or Friday so it's three days.' I'm like 'uh, I still have to go through those days. Duh.'

Um...Nick, Kristen and I want to do our masks tomorrow so if anyone else wants to join just tell us. They have the cheap dollar store mask stuff at the dollar store. Shocker right? So if you bring over glitter, feathers, glue and any other materials it'd be cool.

I have paints, markers and a few things here and there. Nick also has some like...sculpty stuff he's using for his mask so we can also use that if we want. I might use both? The cheap one for a mold or something.

Nick's mom is making his Kyon cosplay! I saw the tie and it's perfect for tugging on XD I didn't see the jacket but it'll be fine. Aunt Hollie can do anything. I guess they were worried about the cosplay not coming in time like last year. They super ordered his Ichigo cospay and it didn't come until after the con. He got the soul reeper on the day we left but it was close.

Plus it's cheaper and he can say he made it. Lucky bastard!

XD

Anyway, that's all for now. Sorry it was soooo long but I just had to tell ya'll.

- Kori

EDIT/PS: The Kcon schedule is posted now so Tuesday we should also (if you're doing masks with us) plan out what we want. We don't have to do everything together but it's way more fun. Ask Pepsi and Wolf. They didn't do anything I do and regret it now XD

Also, my subby is up in five days too. Bittersweetness. I'll miss it... ;-;